My Story told from my dads view: Part 1

Hi, this is NOT Jennifer.  This is Jennifer’s Dad. As I was going through my storage I found many photos of the last 15 months.  I didn’t know if I should bring all this up again, but in a conversation with Jennifer she said that if we made it weird, then it really would be weird.  She encouraged me to not only bring up some of the pictures, but to share some of my thoughts about what has happened in the past many years.  

I first learned of Justin’s cancer in a phone call from Jennifer in the Summer of 2013.  I immediately called a friend of mine who is an oncologist at the University of Colorado.  Justin’s cancer turned out, at least initially, to be a rather generic germ-cell tumor in his chest.  The cancer was very susceptible to chemo therapy and we had great reason to be optimistic. Plus, I consider myself a deeply Christian person, and I had every confidence that God would bless us as we had worked to devote our lives to him (by the way, I believe He did bless us, but will save that for a future post).  

During those first months I watched Jennifer and Justin as they fought so hard.  We (and they, I expect) had every expectation that they would beat this, which they did for many years.  Our family rallied around them. I’ll never forget receiving pictures from my granddaughter as she worked to fight the cancer late in the fall of 2013!!!!!

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Adelyn’s drawing of Justin’s cancer, and the bullseye she used for target practice!

Nerf gun expert and cancer killer, Adelyn Martin!

Justin and Jennifer worked hard to make life as normal as they could.  That included Thanksgiving meals together

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Thanksgiving 2013

And as many trips together as we could find the time for.  In retrospect, I can feel of Justin’s courage as I write this.  I know that for a time after his initial treatment he felt a bit better, but I don’t think he ever felt wonderful.  But, his sole goal was to help make my daughter feel safe and secure.

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Jerusalem, December 2014

I know the process wasn’t easy for Jennifer either.  Justin’s treatments were horrible, and all the while she had to still keep working as a 4th grade elementary school teaching.  In going through these pictures I found this photo of Jennifer and some of her 4th graders.  I’m still not sure who is the teacher and who is the 4th grader! 🙂  

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Six children and a stuffed wolf.  If they only had a teacher!!!!

Still, she kept it together, and for a time, we forgot about cancer.  That seems so long ago and almost impossible. But, for a time, we felt like this would pass and we would get some normality to our lives.  But, that was not to be.

 After a year or so of some normalcy, Justin going back to school and Jennifer working, we found that the cancer had come back and was starting to take over his chest.  We hoped that what we saw in the chest was just fluid, and that we could drain it off. But, that was not to be. One does not need to be a doctor to see where the growth in Justin’s chest was going.  

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As the treatments started again, Justin kept a good face on the topic.  I honestly don’t know how he could have. He is easily the most brave human being I have ever known.  Even in light of all this, he worked to do what he needed to do with the treatments and fight as hard as he could.

I was pleased to be in town periodically and to be able to take him in for exams every once in a while!

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Rulon and Justin during one of Justin’s chemo treatments.
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As the treatments intensified Justin had to spend more and more time in the hospital.  Many of these times were just horrible experiences for he and Jennifer. I know that he tried to be positive so that she would not worry, but at times like this, it was hard to put a good face on the situation.  It had been a few years since his first diagnosis, and we knew that the cancer had spread into his chest, but we still had hope for the future. Part of that, I am sure, is that the alternative of having hope is just not acceptable.  What other option is there? I will never forget the hope and courage Justin and Jennifer had through this process.

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Justin and Jennifer as he prepares for yet another surgery.  At this point, every time he went in we knew that there was a possibility that we would not see him again.  This photo takes on special meaning given that circumstance.

As Justin got done with surgery, again, and we worked to create a treatment plan we looked for any point of happiness that we could share.  One of them, for Justin and I specifically, was food. He is a man after my own heart with regard to food!! So, we would take pictures of particularly good meals and send them to each other.  I found one such picture in my recent search.

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I remember sending this to Justin. He loved the idea of having this breakfast!! ☺ ☺  I still do looking at it today! ☺

After his surgery we again worked to find a way to treat and get past this.  We worked hard to find every protocol and every treatment option. But, on Valentines Day 2018 Justin was admitted to the University of Utah Hospital.  It was an emotional day. My next post will take you through Justin’s stay in the hospital.

You can read Part 2 HERE.

18 Comments

  1. It’s fascinating to read the story from his perspective. Looking forward to the next post. ♥️sending love to all of you, always. I have twin boys who are three years old.

  2. Hi, I’ve been following your daughters post, I think since she started posting. What a wonderful and beautiful young lady she is. And I know a big part of this is because of the up bringing from you and your wife. She is now a mother of two beautiful boys. Her life has been so hard losing her wonderful husband. But she is strong, has two wonderful patents and family who have helped her so much. I love the closeness of your beautiful. How wonderful that your posting this journey of your son in law. I look forward to the rest of your post. And I feel so blessed to have found all of you. 🥰

  3. I’m so sorry all of you have had to go through this nightmare. I lost both of my parents to cancer. My mom from lung cancer and my dad to kidney cancer. It’s awful!
    All of you were and are very brave! Especially Jennifer! Raising twins would be trying with TWO parents, but she’s outnumbered every single day. She does talk about you and her mom, and how wonderful and supportive you both have been every step of the way. So you’re a very good dad and grandpa.
    We will never be able to understand the WHYS of cancer, all we can do is our best to love and support the victims and their families as best as we can. Looking at those two beautiful boys, I feel like I know why he was here…..just look at them. What a wonderful legacy!
    Bless you all!
    Pam

  4. I’m a two time three kind cancer survivor and I can relate to all the struggles. I’m just sorry Justin’s journey ended so sadly.

  5. Thank you very much for sharing a true story of love and hope. I haven’t stopped crying, I’ll watch for the continuation

  6. Hi, I live with my family in Germany, where we met Justin while he was serving a 2 year mission for our church. He was such a decent young man and I was thrilled to see his wedding announcement to Jennifer! Then not long after they were married, he was diagnosed with cancer and that was so hard to imagine, but their horrible reality. Jennifer is a lover and a fighter, taking care of their twins and living a life that probably knows dark as well as light days. And yet through her posts (writings and pictures) she always manages to give light to others. She has a special place in my heart, Even though we never met. She touches hearts through her story and it makes me feel connected. We’re all part of eachothers worlds and can support one another. Prayers of gratefulness and strength for you and your family❤️

  7. That’s just beautiful. Your dad seems a very caring father. I never thought cancer would be part of my family’s story and now I have a mother who is in the hospital because of it.

  8. I can feel the love from everyone whom this experience touched. When one member of the family is down, the rest of the family feels it. These times are hard, but I am touched by how your family came together so wonderfully to take care of one another through it. Families are such a blessing. And what a sweet dad you are 🙂

  9. Absolutely heartbreaking to be reading this. Though I think its important for everyone to read these blogs to know the type of person Justin was to read how hard he battled and how you and your family was their every step of the way for him and your daughter. An ex boyfriend died four months after his wedding to cancer reading your blogs along with your daughters makes me think about his wife and young son and the pain the three of them went through.
    Bless you all

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